Being part of the For the Love launch team led to being part of the launch team for Sarah Bessey’s new book, Out of Sorts. This is the first of her books I’ve read (although Jesus Feminist is waiting patiently on my Kindle along with 32 other unread pieces of prose), and I cannot recommend it highly enough. To have the courage to share the truth of your journey with Jesus is something we all should strive for. Sarah goes beyond those levels of courage to share it on the pages of a book for the world to see. And I’m so grateful.
I don’t have time or space to share everything I want to from this book. Frankly, I haven’t had the time to process everything and figure out what exactly each of the 179 highlighted passages mean to me right now. So I’ll tell you about one little moment when my heart rose and the tears fell and my soul stirred.
Sarah wrote these words in Chapter 2: “I lost Jesus in there [church]. It seemed one could be a Christian without being a disciple of Jesus.”
I stopped reading.
Someone had put words to what I’d been experiencing.
“I lost Jesus.” Not in a “lose your salvation” way. But in a “small child in a shopping mall who can’t find her parent” way. I can’t see over, around, or through all the not-quite-true versions of Jesus surrounding me on all sides. Have you ever seen a child run up to an adult and grab on to a leg or arm before they realize this person isn’t their parent? You know that look of fear that suddenly appears in the child’s eyes? That’s what I feel. Disconcerted because the person I thought was my source of safety turns out to be a total stranger.
I’ve lost Jesus.
Sarah goes on to share the story of how she found Jesus again. She doesn’t give a step-by-step guide, which is the last thing anyone needs when realizing they need to find the real Jesus. Instead she gives permission to head into the wilderness and let Jesus reveal himself to you. The whole book sets us free to take whatever journey Jesus is leading us into.
It’s a journey of sorting through to find the truth in what you already know.
The truth is in there somewhere. You just have to get rid of everything else to find it. Because, you see, it is out of sorts we are able to find the treasure and get rid of the trash.